Oh how things change....and stay the same.

This one was written in December 2007. So funny how things change and how they stay the same....

So, it's been a crazy, crazy year. Those of you that know me well, know most of the instances that have made this year a rough one.

A year ago, I could look in the mirror and know I had complete and total control over my life, so I thought. But somehow over the past twelve months I have lost control and have never felt so damn helpless. And I absolutely refuse to carry this into 2008.

After many long conversations with many of my great friends, who thank God, helped me through this year, whether they know it or not, I have come to the conclusion that we have nothing to lose.

Think about all of the things we stress about. Jobs, money, relationships. Most of us are in our mid-twenties and live damn good lives - but somehow it's never enough. If we are attached we wonder if he's the one or can I overlook the fact that I hate what my significant other watches on tv? If we're married, we hate that our single friends can do happy hour whenever they want! If we're single, we wonder where and when we'll find the next person to occupy our time until we decide that we can't overlook the fact that we hate what they watch on tv.

When it comes to work, we wonder if we're doing a good job. Are we going to get fired? Are we going to get promoted? Am I being paid for the amount of work I'm putting in? Can I find another job somewhere else? Can I make more money somewhere else?

So, we talk to our friends. We toast to silly things about being single, being broke, and being fabulous. We make eyes at the person across the bar, but if they talk to us, we blow them off. We work our asses off and then just stress that we really should be making more money. We analyze and reanalyze things that we really have absolutely no control over! We talk ourselves in circles. We ruin perfectly good nights out talking about things that we can't answer. We ruin Sunday Funday by making ourselves crazy over something that we truly will never understand.

The question is, what do we have to lose by asking these questions to the people that can actually answer them?!?!!!! I love you - my friends - but you can't tell me why the boy who asked for my number at the bar didn't call me. You can't tell me why my boss does nothing when things aren't going well at work. So, what do we have to lose by asking the questions??? To the person that can answer the question.

My ultimate goal in 2008 is this - to before I do or say anything, to think WHAT DO I HAVE TO LOSE?? Let's be honest my friends, 9 times out of 10, the answer is nothing. You have nothing to lose. You're young, you're fabulous, and I love all of you and appreciate all of you. Sometimes, it's going to happen, you're going to get rejected and the answer isn't going to be what you want it to be, but at least you know. And knowing is half the battle, my friends!

For those of you that are aware of my plans for change in the future, please help keep me grounded. Please help me realize that I live a fantastic life and that I couldn't do it without each and everyone one of you.

Cheers to a fantastic 2008! And to getting the answers you need, even if you don't want to hear them!