You used to be a rockstar....

I won't lie, life has been rough lately. I haven't been myself. I've been frustrated, stressed out, and a little lost. Okay, maybe a lot lost... I thought it was normal. Post-move, post break-up...people are supposed to feel a little out of whack, right?

Wrong....

A friend of mine....one I'm not terribly close to and haven't done a good job of keeping in touch with messaged me randomly (via Facebook, no less!) the other day and made me look at things like I should've been looking at them over the last 9 months.

I won't take you through the whole convo, but what he said was crystal clear. "You used to be a rockstar." Wow. I didn't know what to say to that. Of course, my first reaction was, are you kidding me? I'm still a rockstar. But then I realized that he was right. I did used to be a rockstar. And my rockstar status has been dwindling...fast.

I can blame it on whatever I want. Work being stressful. The weather being shitty. Missing Orlando. It doesn't matter. Truth is, I've let a lot of "stuff" get in the way of being me. Well, kids, watch out - I'm back. For real this time.

It doesn't matter where I live. It doesn't matter what happens. I am still the same crazy, hard working, fun loving, independent, stubborn person I was before. Just a different zip code and a winter wardrobe. I really don't know how I lost sight of that to be quite honest with you.

It's such a simple realization. And it was a simple statement. "You used to be a rockstar." That's exactly what he said.

And what's really sad about all of this is equally as simple. The rockstar behavior hasn't gone away. I haven't stopped doing the things I love. I haven't stopped going out and being myself and having a blast. I simply stopped acting like I rockstar. I started worrying about stupid shit. I started thinking about things I couldn't control. And I got stuck inside my own damn head.

So - thank you friend. For pointing out the obvious. And for making me realize - that I am a rockstar. And it's about damn time I started acting like one.

And for my fantastic rockstar friends, and for the ones that were there for me when I wasn't up to par, thank you for being a part of my life. I have realized lately that I am one of the luckiest girls in the world. I have great friends, an amazing family, and a life I am proud of.

Cheers

xoxo

rye